You know how some people believe that the universe is literally testing us? Like, once we believe we’ve accomplished something or overcome a personal emotional hurdle, the world will throw you a challenge, or a test, to see if you’ve actually overcome it? I never believed that to be the case… but I do have some pretty strong evidence to support the hypothesis.
Looking back, it’s honestly unbelievable the number of things I was told as a young boy that were, at best, horrible advice, and at worst, actual dangerous and predatory behavior….Identifying as female has completely changed the way I think about sex yet again.
Long before I’d heard the word “transgender,” I was a kid who loved Animorphs. In 4th grade, for the first time, I imagined myself transforming not into an animal’s body, but into the body of a female classmate… I’d never felt so complete.
…the presence of trans people in our media has allowed trans existence to become normalized. We’re no longer a quiet secret, lurking in the shadows, ready to trick you into falling in love with us, and people have generally begun to accept that trans people exist as a part of the vast tapestry that makes up humanity…Allowing trans characters to exist, even if the portrayals aren’t accurate or positive, forces people who likely don’t know a trans person in real life to share space with us.
“Because I have a penis, I was seen as male, and it was expected of me to play sports. Failure to live up to the masculine expectations of my parents would result in mockery, insults, or grounding, if not physical abuse. So I tried my very best to do what was expected of me.”
Sometimes I have to remind myself that I did, in fact, come out, and it wasn’t just some wish-fulfillment dream that I imagined happened three months ago. In general, I’ve been feeling stuck—completely frozen in place, unable to move forward, and unwilling to go back.
When I was a kid, I believed the world was a certain way. Because nearly all of the people in my life shared that worldview, it seemed likely that it was probably correct. Even as my family moved, over and over again, from state to state, we always settled in areas where, once again, everyoneContinue reading “I Changed; My Ability to Assess People Didn’t”
Author’s Note: I’m probably going to say some things in this blog that confuse, anger, or trigger you. I’m playing with big concepts, and in order to understand what I’m talking about, you’re going to have to go on the ride with me. I promise it will all make sense in the end. I believeContinue reading “Love as Capitalism”
I’ve been writing more lately! I’d hoped that doing blog posts would help me get back into it, and they have. I’ve also been freelancing a little, and I have a steady thing writing an article once a week for a local business. Being paid a little bit of money to write stuff had renewedContinue reading “The Last Leader: An Attempt at Hopeful Sci-fi”
I’ve been writing more lately! I’d hoped that doing blog posts would help me get back into it, and they have. I’ve also been freelancing a little, and I have a steady thing writing an article once a week for a local business. Being paid a little bit of money to write stuff had renewedContinue reading “My Attempt at Hopeful Sci-fi”
Being a writer, I’m naturally someone who interrogates our collective definitions & understandings of words. As a writer who is also a woman in transition, a word that’s been on my mind a lot lately is “womanhood.” What does it mean to be a woman, and why is that such a nebulous concept that soContinue reading “Defining “Womanhood””